Procrastination creeps in
Monday, October 29, 2007 12:40 PM
I wish I could say I've been doing lots of work.
Actually I haven't. And if I still haven't done any productive work AT ALL by 3AM today (this means reading about 10 chapters.. why can't I have Mr Coffee's reading speed?!), I'm going to take some really drastic measures.
This includes camping permanently in school. This means I'm willing to stay in school till 12AM every day just to do work. Also means that heavy books and laptop will be on hand. This is bad.
I should get to studying. Now.
Five weeks to finals.. why can't I just study hard for the next SEVEN WEEKS AND PARTY LIKE IT'S 2011?!
so it begins..
Sunday, October 21, 2007 8:03 PM
this is what i call trying to mug in the ungodliest of hours. (do you see the little box of sushi from sushi tei? HAHA)
it's raining heavily now and i should be sleeping!
/add 3.49pm/ two projects and a termpaper are due this week ): which means no sleep! talking to geoffrey now makes me realise how long it's been since i've last seen him which can be so depressing. it'll be another two years before he starts saving me from my uni course haha
Labels: work
Saturday, October 20, 2007 12:39 PM
today was a good day! cos i finally had a proper afternoon nap while it was raining outside (i last enjoyed this luxury in secondary school..) and mom went for the raoul sale and bought 5 blouses for me! :) weee
she bought subway cookies and sushi from sushi tei too. i wonder if i'll get to enjoy such luxuries in the future..
i should probably get back to work now..
PS i probably shouldn't be updating this so frequently since adrian hasn't updated his in a million years. mais alors..
Labels: rambling
three-way traffic
Saturday, October 13, 2007 7:06 PM
a couple of days back we celebrated cedric's birthday (: which was something really fun to do; now, i'm at yings and her twin's place and all of the sleepover-ers are asleep except for velvry and i;
it's 3.58AM and i'm very tired;
i didn't want to come at first but then the week was bad and i needed time away to think. since oil prices are rocketing sky high and so i'm not as rich as peis to go on a short weekend break i decided to stay here, right now, and then;
i've been thinking about this three-way traffic thing for a long, long time. it's playing out like a long drama waiting to end, only that it doesn't cos one of us is pulling and dragging at the strands left.. and you realise that there's nothing left to do, and nothing left to say
and then maybe it's not three-way at all; i've lost so much, and gone too far.. compromised more than i should, given more than i could, and loved when i didn't have to
wish i can cry here, now and then, and then realise that things aren't so bad.
they aren't so bad.
back to watching tv with vel;
* * *
this happened a while ago; i left. left because i could and should!
and i can't feel happier.
a friend commented that i'm always unhappy so i did the opposite. I LEFT.
laughing at ou di (a classmate resembles him) doing a fine imitation of a dinosaur. HAHA. i love velvry..for being there for the past few years. (:
Labels: reflections
Friday, October 12, 2007 3:16 PM
why is it so inherently hard to say "i really need to do this, please leave now"?
sentosa dreaming
Sunday, October 7, 2007 5:58 PM
Friday was spent mostly in a small island off the country filming; it was great fun actually apart from all the heat. It was great to be away for a while, and it was good to be looking back to the main island.
I sound a little crazy to myself.
Saturday was spent mostly at home, watching the tv (we won 4-0!) and talking to xin-ying who has heard about my online and offline stalker so many times already. I miss her loads ): (It doesn't help that she found this five quid pizza restaurant in oxford circus while I spent my days in London eating pret a manger. which i still like - maybe cos I got free hot wraps and carrot juice haha)
Next friday/saturday yings and lings have a sleepover at their place. Yings assured me that they have a couple of err computers and laptops haha. But I don't have a car to drive my textbooks and other stuff to their place. Life is tough.
About 18 crazy people are online now but I'm talking to only two.
It's a quiet night and quietly I contemplate. I've trusted so much and gone above and beyond. Wish I could spend Christmas in London. Mom fell asleep last December in the National Gallery among famous artwork.
Now she's asleep in my room. I miss her, too.
Labels: reflections, reminiscing, summer, work