Thursday, August 23, 2007

2:03 PM

you got it all

It is actually a 1980s classic The Jets song; I do think I should be much older than I am; there was once when I went out drinking with Mr Coffee and we heard this old song, You Belong to Me, which I really liked. Mr Coffee didn't hear it before but oh well.

I listen to Class 95 sometimes. When I'm driving. But we don't have the car anymore.

Listening to this song though - you got it all -makes me feel.. down, but not so down. Mom loves this song - she grew up in the 80s, and I just feel like I've missed out on all the great music - Queen, The Jets, The Beatles, The Bee Gees...

Originally, a couple of hours back, I was really upset. But I believe that everything happens for a reason, and, as corny as this is, gam zeh ya'avor. Which means to say, this too shall pass. I realised how I've written things is like how someone I know writes - sometimes - and I didn't realise how those harmless words can hurt someone if you are not the intended recipient. "People who matter"... what if you're the one that doesn't matter?

It's like what Adrian says though, you may take X as your close, good friend, but maybe, X doesn't think the same of you, maybe Y is X's close, good friend (vice-versa Y loves X). So, you'd feel left out.

And I can't help but feel that sometimes. It's like trying to fit into your world, knowing that even if we're of equal standing, somehow, I'm just not good enough (even as I've known you the longest, then again, time doesn't matter). But seeing that there are only a couple of days left, I don't really want to argue about this..

You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I've got
Cos you got it all... over him

Mom told me once (I know I keep mentioning my Mom recently, but she's my best friend!), that sometimes, you date a lot of other people and in the end, you end up with the one you originally love (more explicitly, the person you loved first).

On that note, I'm off to read my text.

Labels: reflections, songs

1. I love music - classical music, jazz, blues, bossa nova, some pop, little rock, a little alternative... nothing metal nor trance. I'm not a big fan of rap/hip hop. It's imperative for me that someone likes the same music as I do. Things would not be pretty otherwise.

2. I'm an incredible home person. It's true. I absolutely love to spend time at home with my family.

3. I'm predictable and boring. But I love to travel. I love to try crazy things like sky diving (not base jumping!!), paragliding...

4. I can devote my life to playing the piano and learning languages. I'm currently spending my summer dabbling in music, learning French... ignoring German a little. ;)

5. I love cities, but would really like to go to some place less developed. On my list are some countries in Asia, and going to other exotic places like South America and Antarctica. I definitely HAVE to go to Antarctica. It's one of my must-dos before I die things.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

2:03 PM

you got it all

It is actually a 1980s classic The Jets song; I do think I should be much older than I am; there was once when I went out drinking with Mr Coffee and we heard this old song, You Belong to Me, which I really liked. Mr Coffee didn't hear it before but oh well.

I listen to Class 95 sometimes. When I'm driving. But we don't have the car anymore.

Listening to this song though - you got it all -makes me feel.. down, but not so down. Mom loves this song - she grew up in the 80s, and I just feel like I've missed out on all the great music - Queen, The Jets, The Beatles, The Bee Gees...

Originally, a couple of hours back, I was really upset. But I believe that everything happens for a reason, and, as corny as this is, gam zeh ya'avor. Which means to say, this too shall pass. I realised how I've written things is like how someone I know writes - sometimes - and I didn't realise how those harmless words can hurt someone if you are not the intended recipient. "People who matter"... what if you're the one that doesn't matter?

It's like what Adrian says though, you may take X as your close, good friend, but maybe, X doesn't think the same of you, maybe Y is X's close, good friend (vice-versa Y loves X). So, you'd feel left out.

And I can't help but feel that sometimes. It's like trying to fit into your world, knowing that even if we're of equal standing, somehow, I'm just not good enough (even as I've known you the longest, then again, time doesn't matter). But seeing that there are only a couple of days left, I don't really want to argue about this..

You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I've got
Cos you got it all... over him

Mom told me once (I know I keep mentioning my Mom recently, but she's my best friend!), that sometimes, you date a lot of other people and in the end, you end up with the one you originally love (more explicitly, the person you loved first).

On that note, I'm off to read my text.

Labels: reflections, songs